Sunday, November 9, 2008


Today was Sam's memorial. It was heartbreaking to see his family. It was a very beautiful service. Several people stepped forward to talk about how Sam had touched their lives. I will miss him a lot. There wasn't a time when i logged into messenger and didn't look for him. If he was on we would chat.

I don't really have much more to say - it's been a rough week. Tomorrow I will start over and hopefully have some good things to talk about.

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Bad Day

Not a whole lot to say wasn't one of the best.

The day started with a phone call from my dad that my mom was at the hospital after falling on a sidewalk outside of the grocery store. She banged her head and has a horrible black eye and several bruises and cuts. She spent the morning in the ER. While waiting on a status fall from my dad after they did her CT scan, my friend Teresa called. I haven't really heard from her since the Summer so i knew something must be wrong. I answered and she said my name real quietly, and I knew. Her brother Sam passed away. He was 25 years old and beautiful. I've known him since he was 11, hell I got him drunk for the first time. It's been a rough year for him, he was diagnosed schizophrenic earlier this year and they were never able to get his meds worked out. Teresa will be flying in from LA tonight or tomorrow and there will be some sort of service on Saturday. i'm numb.

The only good part of the day was dinner at my dads. For the first time in probably 10 years that i can remember, he was sober. He was fun and nice. I can't remember the last time he was like that.

Rest in Peace Sam - I loved you!

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Trying again

ok...i remember to post today ;)

We went to the movies tonight to see Max Payne (Sp). It was really good. especially for a movie based off of a video game. I give it two solid thumbs up for action and not a lot of blood. After the movie we went out to dinner at Outback. It was really good, but i'm so full now i feel kind of sick. It was really nice to have some one on one time outside of the house without a 4 year old. Not that I don't love him, but sometimes it is nice to have adult time. was very nice and it wasn't even my idea ;) The little one was sick yesterday so we kept him home. Tonight isn't our night so we had to take him to his mother's parents this morning. He was sad and didn't want to go or stay there. It is heartbreaking. I just keep thinking that in less than a year we will have him all the time and things will be better...more stable for him.

Tomorrow we are having dinner with my father and Linda. That should be interesting. I introduced them to the asshole and while my father liked him (of course they were so similar), Linda didn't. She is very excited to meet the love of my life however. I'm excited too, but a bit nervous because i know my father. I'll update tomorrow with how it went.

Other news...I left my car at work today because there was no point in us taking two cars out tonight then back up the road - just needless wear and tear. I can imagine that tomorrow morning i'll be hearing the whining from the other side of the building of how i must be sleeping around because my car was there overnight. Seriously - if he only knew. I did find out today that a good friend of mine has been talking to him about taking a transfer and how it would be good for him to move on with his life and that he can't do it staying where he is. I think it's good advice and from what i hear he is seriously considering it. That was really good news for me. I just want to be free to do what i want and not have to worry about running into him.

Monday, November 3, 2008

i lied

i was planning on participating in NaBloPoMo and now it's November 3 and i didn't even realize that November had started. Wow...I think i must really be losing my mind. This is further evidenced by the fact that it's not even 10pm est and i'm going to bed because i'm exhausted!